On my way to work every morning, I usually listen to podcasts or audio books on my iphone. On this particular morning, I left the house 45 minutes earlier than I usually do because I wanted to hit the gym and work out before going to the office. Problem is, I left in such a hurry, I forgot my cell phone at home.
That’s not a good thing, because I am very attached to that magnificent device. Everything I do is calendar there and I am in constant connection with my family and work at all times. So yeah, I was crippled, big time!
I could have turn on the radio and listen to music or the news during my hour drive, but I just drove in silence. I’d say probably 15-20 minutes into my drive, I began to talk to myself, and then of course as it always happens, the conversation turn to my invisible constant friend; God.
If you have ever read the book, Men Are Like Waffles–Women Are Like Spaghetti: Understanding and Delighting in Your Differences, by Bill & Pam Ferrell, (btw-I recomend this amazing little book for anyone in a serious relationship) then you would understand why my conversation with myself went something like this…
“Beba, you should have left earlier, it’s almost time for Pilates and here you are on 85 Southbound and no where near the gym…I can’t believe I left my phone! How am I going to function today without it? Arg! I forgot to put the clothes in the dryer! I wonder if the boys ate breakfast before they left for school…I bet they forgot to feed the dog…God, please remind me to return those rain boots today, I keep forgetting…and God, please don’t let me get into an accident on the freeway, I don’t have my phone (seriously-I prayed that!)…Btw, God, I should thank you because you have kept me all these years…Thank you for protecting my family…Thank you for my husband and my boys, and thank you for my good friends and …”
Well, the list went on and on until eventually I was almost in tears telling God how much I appreciate all He’s done for me and how desperately I need Him still. Sometimes silence is more soothing than words. I didn’t need to hear from God at the moment, I just wanted to say what I needed to say, you know.
Have you ever had one of those days when you just need to hear a rersponse to prayer immediately? When you heart is overwhelmed and the anxiety is threatening your blood pressure because you need answers to whatever ails you desperately? That wasn’t it for me this time. I didn’t say a lot either. I just said my thank yous, shared a few needs, and then left it at that.
Although I didn’t hear any response from God (I didn’t ask for one, either), I felt like we’d had a great conversation, however one sided it may have been at the time. See, a good friend knows to listen attentively and recognizes when words are not needed.
I had a pretty good day after that, and what was interesting about the rest of the day, is that I found God speaking to me through various unexpected venues. I didn’t ask for a response and yet, I felt as though there were clues and inspirational moments spread out through the day hinting at God’s interest in me and my needs.
I gather I need to have me some more of those “one sided” conversations, and then wait and see what neat things happen through out the day.